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winter break [02 Jan 2006|01:37am] wow I ahven't written in this thing for ever. this winter break has been awesome. I got to go boarding in colorado, wish ang and lora went too but oh well. saw thursday. and drank lots of vodka and partied with lots of crazy people. i've decided that everyone in sj is fucked up, it's prolly soemthing in the wudder, but I love it. I still wanna see a coupple more people, but i'm about ready to go back to hawaii. Laying around and doing nothing is only fun for so long. i miss going to the beach. and i deff miss lionnel. man i never knew i could love someone as much as i do him. it's been so hard not being with him, it's like apart of me is missing. it really sucks because were never able to talk to eachother, when one of us is free the other one is busy. but i'll be abck in his arms soon and everything will be peachy again. now it's bedtime 4 said | post comment

[14 Jul 2005|10:36pm] Yeah so maybe im a physcotic bitch. the fight if you wanna call it that was like all my fault. and lionnel called to apoligize. what a great guy. i'm sooo lucky to have him as my bf. i was so nervous this morning and he made everything better. i <3 him sooo much. gosh i sound like brooke. oh yeah my eye exam went fine and dany - the fact that i ahd to get a needle. i creid. i hate needles. 1 said | post comment

[14 Jul 2005|06:01am] Brooke Amanda, you ahve been begging me to update so here goes. it's 6 am and i ahvne't been to bed yet. i've been super sick. but i'm pretty much feeling better now except for my throat. I have an eye drs appoinment in b-more and have to leave in like 30 mins. i'm really scared i don't want them to tell me that my eyes are getting worse. Man i realy wish lionnel was here. When we talked tonight we were both just like annoying eachother. he does some pretty stupid things some times. he told a priest at school that i smoke weed, and i'm like why'd you do that he said because it's who you are you shouldn't be ashamed. but when i told my friends here about what he eats he completely denyed it and made me look like i was making up all kinds stories. and other then that he was acting like i pretty much don't care about him. and wants me to send his sweater back to him. which makes a lot of sense b/c he keeps bitching about how hot it is. he's like the sweetest guy in person but hes on like crack now or something. I want things to be normal again he's made me cry like all week. so i think i'm gonna take tim up on his drinking offer this weekend. brookers your comming with. thank you so much for being there for me. i love you girlie! 1 said | post comment

[19 Jan 2005|06:44pm] You know your in college when you say man we had a good weekend, sucks tomorrows monday, when it's really thursday and then someone ssays yeah you know, we have a one o clock class together. I'm like yeah thats right I got pissed for having such an early class. maybe a night of soberity will do me some good. trips man o trips post comment

[20 Dec 2004|01:32am] Ten show rocked! Amazing, I think I've outgrown emo though, I was dieing to hear some screaming, HIPV was awesome as usual, and this band action action was like wow don't know what to say about them. I got an action action shirt, ticket signed by them, free pins and a sticker. Man they were hot. 3 people die every year from paper cut related injurys or so says a pin from armor for sleep. Had an awesome chees steak then hung out with dan and tim at dans. Tomorrow i'm going boarding, i'm completely stoked about that. Maybe it will get me in the holiday spirit, because I'm really not feeling it. Only thing on my Christmas list is the action action cd. Blah, whats with me, normally I <3 Christmas, I guess I'm just lonely. All my friends have someone except for me, I have my dog. Wow, I suck at life. Bed time. 4 said | post comment

[18 Dec 2004|05:33am] Haahah i think i need a shrink, i was going insane earlyer, thank God for dan i was bitching to him for like an hour about how much life sucked, then aj and I talked. Before that I went shopping with my mom and out to the olive garden, man the food there is orgasmic. Picked up my Gpop relised how much i miss my nana.Checked my grades online yeah A in calc 3.7 GPA went to call my gmom and relised I couldn't wow none of this is gonna make sense to anyone. Well i was bitching to dan about how i have no friends and then how everyone was out with there boyfriend, then bruce scooped me, we went to palace. Man hot ass boys. Went to super wawa, tim hooked me up with a hot chocolate and a wawa hoodie hawt shit! then we went crusin down to hammy and hung out with hunter. I'm no longer homosidal and i love jersey once again. I'm beyond stoked, tomorrow is the TEN and HIPV show whooo whoo. post comment

[14 Dec 2004|12:38am] Had a lovely girls day out in philly guy bashing/shopping/eating away our proublems<3 **Were going on a boat ride, this is not a car this is a boat. Do you like my boat? Look at my row!** But after all was said and done, i relised that i really do miss you. But i know you've moved on to better, blonder things and you won't even read this. So it's time to go to bed. Goodnight all. 1 said | post comment

[04 Dec 2004|03:25pm] Dieing my hair red! After the die was applied i found this pic   Hawt!!!, Laur wanna die my hair like that when I get home? What do you guys think? 3 said | post comment

[23 Nov 2004|12:25pm] Okay got some good news I leave hawaii in less then 6 hours! It's so great when i tell my freinds i'm comming home there all like when's the party, or like lets do this and this. Feel so loved. BAd news is Nana was given a week to live. Words honesly can't describe how much i love her. She was the one person who ws always there for me, she took me in twice. But about 2 days before she was admitted to teh hospital i called and had a nice long chat with her, i'm so lucky i did , b/c it's the last time i could have talked to her coherently. God i can't stop crying, i can't even see the keys as im tying it all one big blur, but i guess it's good to get it out. Tahnk you fto everyone who's been there for me, i'm truely blessed! <3 you all 3 said | post comment

[19 Nov 2004|04:14pm] I just want it to be known I have the best friends in the entire world. I love you all. 4 said | post comment

[19 Nov 2004|12:34am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | the early november ] Yeah another tearfilled night. I'm under way too much stress. I can't handle it, every phone call I get from home, I just wanna be there. I wana see my grandmom I want her to be normal when I get home. I hope the radiation helps. The phone calls I have been getting don't seem to great, but 'm not giving up hope. ahhhhhhhhhh man I can't even describe how I'm feeling. I feel so bad, some friends have been comming to me for problems and I havne't been able to help them. I wanna go for a long walk, Prolly when the sun gets up. 2 said | post comment

[16 Nov 2004|10:34pm] WHAT THE FUCK I just got off the phone with my mom. I asked when were going to buy my plain ticket home, Turns out with my Grandmom in the hospital, she hasn't been getting much work done, and she doens't have the money to buy me a ticket, so that gives me what 3 weeks to raise God know's how much money. I have no idea what I'm going to do if I can't go home. Were only allowed to stay in the dorms for an extra 3 days. It's not even like I can go job serching this week because I have a 14 page lab report and a huge lecture exam on friday not to mention 2 chem lab reports due. So I guess this Christmas I'll be camping on the beach. 5 said | post comment

perfect ending to my perfect week [13 Nov 2004|10:55pm] ahh this week has been so stressful, everyday i call family to see hon's doing, every day it seems as if she's getting better, I had a coherant convo with her a few days ago. But I mean she's still in the hospital, so friday I decided to drink it off we all get lq and go to garys to drink. Gary dones't listen to me and gets shit faced again. Long story short, Gar ran away to B and MArios room, Krystal and I fetched him, wehnt back to party with B and Mario. Krystal went home B and everyone went to smoke and MArio and I hooked up. I was realllly fucked up adn the room was spinning, so Mario was gonna wlak me to the dorm and then we see drunken gary. Ahhh drunken Gary drama, he needs a fucking abbysitter, and of corse it's always me, i'm the onlyone he half listens to. He was buming ciggs and trying to find some weed, even though he's never smoked it. I started screaming at him and made him cry. Went to bed around 330 Woke up today at 830 to plant trees for bio club. It ws fun, Food sucked fucking hawaiian food, soooo greasy. After 5 hours we leave. On the way home Linal's truck starts shaking, I'm like damn your trucks falling apart, I'm waiting for a whell to to pop off. Yeah a few mins later the tire blows we crash into the median, then spin across the 4 lane highway somehow now hitting a single car everytthing is in slow motion, as i see a huge tree aproaching all I could think is I can't die no, in hawaii, my mother can't handle this. I covered my head and closed my eyes. After the jerking stopped I opened my eyes, we hit a curb a few feet from the tree. We barrel out of the truck, I'm shaking and and have the most intense headache I banged my head sooo hard against the glass. Everyone was okay, We called 911 and of corse it was busy way to go honolulu. When the cops and amublance finally showed up the EMT thought I might have a concussion asked me what the datee is, i ddin't know, just htat it was sat. Then he asked where i was at and im like ahhhh Hawaii he asked some more ?'s and decided tha tI didn't have a concussion. All the bio teachers who went on the bio thing were at the scene by the time we left, We talked mr I into giving us extra credit points, so I guess something good did come out of it. When we got back to campus it was dinner time, and I had no appitite, but I forced myself to eat so I could take sme IB PROFFIN then a bunch of us went to the island festivle at school where all the island clubs preformed, it was really cool. Now it's bed time I can't wait t wake uptomorrow, my neck is going to be KILLING me b/c it's nbearable as is. goodnight alll 4 said | post comment

what a day [09 Nov 2004|12:23am] [ mood | emotionless ] okay my day started out amazing, i was in teh BEST mood. Krystal and I went to the beach, did homework and found an amazing italian place, food was soo good. I come back to the dorm and my mom calls. Jenn I have some bad news, your grandmom has cancer. It's in her vertebre but cancer doesn't originate their, so they have to run test to see where it originated. And of course they can't opperate on the spinal coard. I was a mess, I call up my friend gary whos always depressed so we can go for a long walk and cry things out. I told him whats wrong and then I said when we get back I think i'm gonna call up rob and smoke. he says I don't think thats gonna happen, Rob got expelled, he has to be off campus by midnight. I had to see him, so we rushed up to his room and found him out side. We didn't even speak, just threw our arms around eachother. I started bawling, I told him what happened, he told me gave me some great advise, just like he always does. It soooo sucks, he's my blazing buddie, and he's the one who taught me not to hate the island, i don't think anyone has taught me so much in so little time. but i'm going t la to visit him so that should be swell. After talking to rob for a bit I went for a walk and called up timmy. talked to him for a while started to say how i hated the island. threw out our phone call I just passed so many people that im friends with and i guess i do have a deccent support system here and I don't hate the island. no worries it's all about the good times. 6 said | post comment

[07 Nov 2004|11:17pm] Heres a lovely little update. Elesction day didn't get to vote b/c jersey didn't send out their apsentee ballots, or so i heard, i never got mine. And Jersey cancled out my hawaii regesteration. but im happy i didn't get to, i would ahve voted bush. Friday I was Ferenhite 9/11 how ever thats spelled. WOW I hate bush, like i never really liked him, just thought he was better then Kerry. Fuck everyone, I need to be presidant. Friday night it rained soooo bad it was cold (72*)for once put on some sweets and a hoodie. We just stayed in and watched movies. Then my freinds roommate comes in and grabs his body board, he went body boarding down the street that had been turned into a river. Sat had nothing to do so gary laura and I went surfing. Crazy times so much fun. Came home to find 8 missed calls 6 of which were from jersey. Dan had a party, pretty much talked to everyone there. Actually I talked to a lot of ppl from jersey sat i felt so loved. Laur, hunter, lora,angie, brooke, tim,dan, dennis. Laurie I hope your feeling better <3 Chilled with krystal while she worked and got some homework done. Gary calls me and tells me tere partying in his neighbors dorm. I went over and as i walk in the room gary belly flops onto the trashcan. completely shashed. I took care of him like i do everyweekend.. Took his LQ from him and put him to bed. Went back to the party they pulled out a hooka, man is that my new love. we went down to the washers and burned, hits so smooth, doesn't even burn, not a person caughed. phil lost his footning and fell in a huge puddle dunny shit. beth and some more ppl came over plaed rings of fire. gary escaped, we caught him and put him back to bed. Drank some for robs dead homies and b's homie who was just shot. everyone left to go smoke but me and mario, i made him eat good n plenties, not a good idea, it made him throw up, rob somehow went to bed, then i woke him up. ate romen noodles with chopsticks, rob was laughing at me b/c i was so amazed i could do it. came home at 5 tried to go to sleep but the room was spinning, so i made some jersey calls. woke up today actually happy to be here. krystal and I went to ward center, then a jamba juice mission, had some japenese ice cream thingys pretty good. krystal swears i have skadar, i can sense a skater when he is around the block she says, well im like skater.... where is he. and he skates up to us, man he was soooo funny, we sat and made fun of japenese people about how all they do is shop and eat and make metal noises. then we waited at the bus stop for like 30 mins, both insandly hyper and the old japenese lady thought we were on crack, time to go to sleep, goodnight all 3 said | post comment

[27 Oct 2004|07:33pm] Crazy weekend/week rob had his homies come in from LA partied with them a few times, got Krystal who wa formerly straight edge drunk twice, had an interesting cinvo with an ice head while waiting at the bus stop. 6 weeks until final exams are over! i was just looking up shows depressing the bled and the bronx are playing the used and some other ppl i never hard of like 2 weeks before i come home. gay only thing that somewhat deccent is HIPV and TEN Dec 18th is anyone's down let me know. Oh mewithoutyou has a show too. umm im hungry so im gonna go eat later kiddies 7 said | post comment

[23 Oct 2004|07:00pm] Kelly darling I just love the new layout completely awesome! thanks!!!! 3 said | post comment

[20 Oct 2004|03:48pm] yeah, almost tricked myself into believing that. 1 said | post comment

[19 Oct 2004|10:34pm] [ mood | blah ] i think i'm getting some kid of mental sickness. I've been having really intense fluctuations in my emotions. Sometimes im extremely happy hten insanly mad/depressed/jelous. it's crazy. not to mention being surrounded by all these seemingly perfect people has done wonders to my self esteem. I think i'm getting tonsilidious or i have so other throat sickness. i just want chicken noodle soup. Wawa soup or home made from Lauries mommie! ahh this reminds me Laurie i love you. you remind me of chicken nodle soup. it was kind of funny how we were always sick together. or made bottle cap soup together good times! oh good times. wow i miss home, i guess comming here has been a good experience. got to experience a new culture, new life, but i'm for sure a jersey girl. i need to start being healthyer im gonna start running when i feel better. im gonna go to bed im rambeling useless junk now. Goodnight all 10 said | post comment

[18 Oct 2004|01:38am] Have you ever thought life was just peachy, then just started to hate everything the next second? I'll update more then im in a better mood. God i need to go dunning and do yoga. Some addys would be pretty sweet too. 3 said | post comment

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